Little 2 Say
Just a sounding board for my problems
back again...
Well boys and girls, it's Friday and, depending on how hard a grip The Man has on your sack, you can use this time to let off some steam. For me, however, I only have tonight off and hopefully having some Chinese food with some buddies and sharing a few laughs and bask in the comraderie. Unfortunately I start my work week tomorrow afternoon (did I mention this really sucks?). A friend of mine right is having woman trouble (who doesn't?). He had a thing for her since her met her a Wal-Mart. There a some pitfalls here: 1) She's a manager, 2) She is married and has a 12-yr old son, and yeah 3) SHE'S MARRIED!!!!
After some flirting and cat and mouse plus some cold shoulder moments, he professes his love for her and she tells him that she is interested. Then she puts him on ice. Rumor says that she came into work on cloud nine and he believes that she screwed that cop who provides security at night an now his pride is hurt. This woman has put this pour man through the ringer and I am running out of things to tell him. I believe that he should go on with his life and find someone new. But like all who are scorned, he wants to take a last cheap shot at her. HELP!!!!
After some flirting and cat and mouse plus some cold shoulder moments, he professes his love for her and she tells him that she is interested. Then she puts him on ice. Rumor says that she came into work on cloud nine and he believes that she screwed that cop who provides security at night an now his pride is hurt. This woman has put this pour man through the ringer and I am running out of things to tell him. I believe that he should go on with his life and find someone new. But like all who are scorned, he wants to take a last cheap shot at her. HELP!!!!
disguises
We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves.
sorry...
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but I've been a little busy with life in general. Anyway, I took a day off to attend my best friend Dana's b-day get together to see a friend I haven't seen in a while and eat some good food and get a little drunk. Remember, that post about bridges? Well, my bud that I haven't seen in a while wanted to toss back a few and wanted me to join him. He revealed to me a abusive family life, more than a few abusive relationships, and other things I will not devulge. My heart went out to him. So much pain, I advised so kind of counseling to deal with things.....
bridges
We cross our bridges when we come to them and burn them behind us, with nothing to show for our progress except a memory of the smell of smoke, and a presumption that once our eyes watered.
Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead
British dramatist & screenwriter (1937 - )
I heard this quote on one of my favorite shows, Criminal Minds and it got me to thinking. Do we really get over the bridges? Honestly, the past should stay there but in reality, it's always there. it permeates oue every day lives. The past shapes our realationships and how we live. Right now, my divorce has me gun shy about women and occassionally has me questioning my woth as a man. In my mind, we are supposed to learn from our mistakes and not repeat them. Unfortunately, we can't even do that...
part 2
Where was I? Yes, not recoginzing her anymore. In her defense, she is going through some shit right now, but that does not give one the right to treat anyone like shit, you know? What worries me is that we don't talk anymore. In fact, one night, I was in a foul mood and didn't want to talk about what was bothering me. She pulls out the I don't talk to her anymore card and that I would talk to others before I talked to her. I spilled my guts and felt better. A few weeks later, I had something I wanted to talk to her about and she dismissed me!!! I couldn't fucking believe it!!! I feel as though I am at my wit's end with her. So many times I thought about saying fuck it and end my 20-year friendship. She is closer to me than anyone and that's what makes this hurt so damned much. Gonna wrap this up and I'll update later.
This is my first...
Here I am with one of these things that no one gives a fucking damn about. As you can probably tell, I'm a tad bit bitter today and I feel the need to let off a little steam. Where can I start? Well, I guess I could start with my best friend Dana. Lately, she's been alittle bitchy and has felt the need to take it out on me. Before you say it, I know that everyone has bad days and unfortunately one takes it out on the people closest to them. I used to do the same shit, but I'm trying really damned hard to change it because of the bodies I left lying around. Another issue I have with her is that she seems to think that she is better than me. Like she's above me and shit. She goes to school, get a degree, and think she's superior. I'm glad she's gotten her life together somewhat and I'm happy for her, but I feel that I don't recognize her anymore..
